Ava and Teagan March 15th-March 17th 2011

Tuesday afternoon I headed in to the doctor for my normal weekly appointment.  I was 34 weeks 1 day.  They did my ultrasound and everything looked good and the same with the babies.  They were measuring about 3lbs 10oz and 3lbs 11oz.  The girl measured my cervix and the week before it had been about 2.2cm and it was now about 1.4cm.  The tech went out and got my doctor and she came in and told me that it had shortened a lot and that she could see on the ultrasound that it was beginning to dilate.  My normal doctor that was going to be the one delivering wasn't there, he was on vacation.  So I saw a doctor that I have never seen before.  Her and my other doctor both said I needed to go straight to the hospital to be admitted and monitored to see if I was actually in labor.  So we headed over there and got all checked in and hooked up to monitors.  I was contracting every 6 minutes or so.  The doctor checked me and I was 100% effaced and 4cm dilated.  This was at about 5:30pm.  From there everything went pretty fast.  Everything was set in motion to do the c-section and deliver our babies.  I met the two doctors that would be doing the c-section.  It was a little nerve racking seeing all these different doctors that I didn't know at all.  With the type of c-section they were going to have to do I had to be put to sleep and Jason wasn't allowed into the operating room.  At 7:49pm Ava Laurel and Teagan Marie entered this world.  They were 7lbs 10oz combined and 15 inches long.  The doctors said at first they started to cry but then started having some difficultly breathing so they had to intubate them.  Jason went right with them to the NICU while they finished up my c-section.  My surgery itself took a little over 2 hours.  As soon as I was awake they took me straight to the babies and they let me hold them.  I held them for about 45 minutes and then had to put them back.  Jason was also able to hold them.  I have loved them from the very beginning but my love multiplied way more then anyone can imagine unless you have had a child yourself. 

On Wednesday we spent the day just being by their side and touching them and looking at them as much as we could.  Our close family and closest friends were there and able to meet our angels.  Brooklyn was able to spend several hours with her baby sisters and she sure is a proud sister.  She made feet print and scrapbook pages that she is so proud of.  She was so sweet with them.  Just touching their little hands and feet and giving them many kisses.  We went to bed that night knowing what the next day would bring.  We have both always known that no matter what anyone did there was nothing that was going to change the outcome and that we would not put them through things that would not help.  Meaning that we would not keep them on breathing machines if they were starting to do worse even being on them.  I wish so badly that they had come out and not needed those and did so much better than anyone anticipated.  I wish that we had to make decisions about what next?  What do we do for them so they can survive and be here with us?  Sadly that is not the journey we were able to take.

Thursday morning we woke up and went straight to the babies and spent the morning with them and took many more pictures.  We had a wonderful photographer who took pictures the day before there to take some more of them.  (She also took my maternity pictures)  At noon we decided that it was time to take them off of ventilator. They were starting to depend on the vents (the setting were being increased) more and they were starting to have heart failure. Nobody really knew what was going to happen once they were taken off.  Sadly our girls left this world 2 hours after they were removed.  We spent those two short hours holding and loving our babies making sure they knew and felt that.  Our hearts hurt so badly not having our sweet girls here with us but have to try to find peace knowing that they are ok and in a better place.  We love them so much and are going to miss them terribly.  Two days is not long enough but that is what God gave us and those two days we will cherished forever.  We will never forget Ava and Teagan and will never stop loving or missing them.

Thank you to everyone who has prayed for our girls and our family.  It means so much to us and we appreciate it alot. 

Here are some pictures of the precious angels.

R.I.P our sweet angels Ava and Teagan