Visiting Ava and Teagan grave is something we do often. At least once a week, sometimes more. Last week I went 3 times. Each holiday we change out their flowers and decorate it for the holiday. A few weeks ago we went and changed it for Valentine's Day!
It is one thing that we can do for them on earth (physically) and I hope they are looking down and love it each time we do something different. :)
I miss my daughters so much every day. I know that I will never be the same and that life will never be "normal" again but I am starting (or at least trying really hard) to learn how to live with the loss of my daughters. In time it will get easier but it doesn't mean that I wont wake up thinking about them and go to bed thinking about them. They will always be fresh in my mind every day for the rest of my life. And that is ok! When you lose a child, you lose a part of yourself. Anyone that has lost a child can understand that 100% and for those that have never lost a child, I pray they never ever have to feel that.
